Release

hi~ BELİNAY here. this poem i wrote when i was slowly, but surely, coming out of a dark place in my life where i learned to “honor your/my journey.” this is one of my favorite phrases as it symbolizes how healing it is to have this sort of radical empathy and humanity towards yourself and with others. there comes a deep understanding and respect when we all reflect on our life’s moments, whether it was something you regret doing, childhood traumas, or someone wronging you in a way you couldn’t control. but by honoring my journey, i can show myself grace and mercy and become a better person that way and acknowledge all of the growth i’ve already made. by honoring someone else’s journey, there is vulnerability and strength in accepting one’s past, and if they did wrong by you, you can choose on your own timing to forgive them, not necessarily excuse their behavior or actions. in my opinion, there is no point or usefulness in shaming others, something that is now rampant in our society due to social media and entitlement. we could really use that time and energy by educating people and honoring their journeys as a way to understand why they are the way they are and without omitting accountability. so, without further ado, let’s dive deeply into Release~

my definition of forgiveness

is that i am not obligated to forgive your actions

but, i am capable of forgiving you as a person

to me, in certain circumstances, i think it can be constructive to separate the person from the wrong that was committed (the action vs. the human behind the action(s)). let me reiterate again, only in certain circumstances. in situations where it is helpful, i believe it can be healing for both who hurt and who was hurt to make that distinction, that is in the power of the hurt, by recognizing that that’s not all of who they are as a person. we’re not making them the victim, instead, we are simply just showing lots of grace and mercy. especially if this is someone who, although they hurt you, you still need and want them as a part of your life, i believe this can make reconciliation easier.

in no way am i making excuses

it’s the simple fact that you’re human

and this, we have all proven

similar to what i mentioned previously, we are not excusing actions, we’re showing grace and empathy by seeing past that person’s action(s) and acknowledging that that’s not all of who they are. we all have our own traumas, fears, regrets, and ways we’ve done others wrong. we are all human, so we can’t escape these experiences nor can we cast stones at others for fucking up also.

i am no longer branded by my trauma

i chant mantras and protect my peace

my own shed skin’s mortality

has allowed for my own unfiltered reality to come to life

it is freeing when you feel released from the shackles of your trauma and realize that it no longer defines you. as someone who’s highly sensitive and didn’t always have the best self-esteem growing up, positive self affirmations have helped me tremendously in all aspects of my life. the world already does so much to put you down, it’d be complete and utter self-sabotage to do the same to yourself. be loving, kind, compassionate, and graceful to yourself, because you deserve it. protect your peace by being good to yourself and letting go what needs to be let go, big or small. choose yourself and put yourself first when it’s necessary, and sometimes, do it just because you can. shed yourself of negative thoughts and past actions and start anew. every moment, every second, is a chance for rebirth.

i can finally feel

i have begun to heal

everyday is a new day

i no longer feel as astray

i think when you’re healing, you start to have more clarity and understanding of yourself and life as a whole. you always learn something new at the end of a journey like that. now, with that all behind you, you can go after life with tenacity and a new umpfh in your step. your newfound/re-found confidence you have in yourself, knowing you have your own back and free yourself from anything, you can conquer the world. you’ll never feel as lost again knowing that you are capable of relying on yourself to heal yourself.

as i mold myself like clay and become the masterpiece i’m destined to be

i’ll be the one to listen to what my soul wants to say and release

everyone’s always got something to say, right? you may not have always felt like you were capable of being who you want to be, and honestly, there are days where i still feel that fear, but whether you think it’s possible or not, you’re right. you get to enjoy life like everyone else, it is your birthright. explore this life and don’t hold back. don’t hold yourself back or allow others or your trauma to dim your light. i always wonder about the afterlife, what it might be like, and if we all have past lives. whether it’s factual or not, however, we can only be truly certain of this one life that we are living right now. we don’t know how much time we have here, and although i love to speak peace and longevity over myself, nothing is truly guaranteed. so, take life by the balls, twist ‘em and turn ‘em if you have to, and take charge of your life! only you can truly free yourself and give yourself the love and contentment that you desire and that you deserve. you are your own artist and you are your own masterpiece, what do you want others to feel when they see your art? and, most importantly, does it satisfy you?

i hope you enjoyed reading and gained more understanding of who i am and of who you are through this poem. let’s inspire ourselves, others, and live a fruitful life by releasing what no longer serves us~

in stillness + soul,

BELİNAY